Coming back to this little space of mine to keep my sanity in check during this period of total insanity that is the COVID-19 pandemic. Since I have a little bit of extra time on my hands and we’ve been talking about the importance of daily writing in one of my classes, I thought I’d make the attempt even if it’s just for a few minutes a day.

Today was day 2 of our official “lockdown”; we’re not quite as shut-in as those in other states or countries, but nevertheless, with all university activity going remote and all “non-essential” businesses shut down, there’s just simply not much else to do but stay home. Dani and I also have the added layer of needing to self-quarantine for two weeks, as we’ve just come back from traveling abroad. While Mexico isn’t a hotbed of coronavirus activity, we spent four days at a resort surrounded by people from all corners of the world and took a total of four flights during our travels. So, better safe than sorry.

If I had to pick a word to characterize the last few days, it would be gone. Everything is just suddenly…gone. The town is empty. The grocery stores look like they’ve been ransacked. There’s no toilet paper, anywhere. Normalcy is gone, and nobody knows when it will be back, if ever.

But there are silver linings to be had as well. These strict measures will hopefully help to “flatten the curve” to keep our health care system from being totally overwhelmed. Carbon emissions are down, which means our planet gets a much-needed break. People are helping each other. This morning I took a live yoga class via Instagram, thanks to a studio in NYC that has moved everything to Instagram (for free) while everyone is stuck at home. Even the instructors appear to be teaching from their apartments. The liquor stores in Pennsylvania are shutting down indefinitely, but they put everything on sale, so I was able to get four bottles of my favorite wine for the price of two normally. It seems trivial, but I’m clinging to the little things.

Still, I can’t help but feel some trepidation and fear of what’s to come. It’s the same feeling I remember in the wake of 9/11, one that I was still too young to fully understand at the time: the feeling that the entire world was about to change, but without any idea of what that new future would look like. Perhaps we can make something good of it.


2 thoughts on “Gone

  1. Hey Girlie, Weird yes…..it’s very quiet here.  You can imagine, all our insanely busy restaurants are closed so it’s like a ghost town here!   I have been ordered, yes ORDERED to stay in by that pesky daughter!  So that what we’re doing here.  Aunt Marty was scheduled to have a implant surgery today but it’s been canceled.  I was scheduled to have the same type of surgery in April, today they rescheduled it for May.  Aunt Cathy is staying low as well.  Her health is not great.  Not sure if you knew but she had a heart attack right after the first of the year.  She’s recovered well but she is also compromised respiratory wise.   Good thing I’m the queen of projects….I’ve picked up sewing again and have started making dolls (arty type) and just finished a pair of linen pants.  Fortunately I have enough fabric to keep me busy for a while.  I started a book for the kids and have about 12 of the illustrations done and, of course, I have a studio full of paints which could keep me busy for months.   Hope you guys are being careful and STAYING IN!  ( will sic Kelly on you).  Please keep me posted.   Love both you guys, Aunt Carol


    • Glad to hear you are listening to Dr. Kelly! I had no idea about Aunt Cathy – we had been messaging one another re: some family history just a few weeks ago and she didn’t say anything. Good to hear she’s recovered and hopefully she stays safely inside! Could I commission you for a pair of pants? I can never seem to find them in my size ;). With school being moved to remote learning and everything being shut down, we don’t have much of a reason to leave! Hopefully things will calm down soon.


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